Life wasn't always such a bed of roses for me, though. I was once a terrible person, with an extremely hardened heart. I was cynical about everything. I was angry at life. I hurt people all the time. I hated my life, and I hated myself.

That all changed when I accepted Jesus Christ into my life as my personal saviour. I am a new person, born in the Spirit of God. The old me, is dead.

God has richly blessed me since I asked him into my life. Let me share some of that blessing with you. Let me show you what the Truth is.

Let me help you change your life, forever.

The long, long, story

I went to sunday school as a child, but I did not grow up knowing that Jesus could be my personal saviour.

I spent a few years in the military, where I learned more than one bad habit. I had a foul mouth, a bad temper, and a cruel disposition. I became a heavy drinker, and lived a life full of sin. I used people around me, rarely considering their feelings.

I was convinced that pornography was harmless, and thought that people who waited until marriage were just wasting their time. They were "prudes".

Involved in one bad relationship after another, I wallowed in my own misery. The more miserable I became inside, the more I shut myself off from people around me. I thought that If I did not let myself love anyone, I would not be hurt anymore.

I had no inner peace. No real joy. I was so sad on the inside, but I tried to hide it. Unfortunately, the more I tried to bottle up my feelings, the more frustrated I became.

I was a man riddled with self-doubt, frustration, and rage.

While I always believed God existed, I did not understand anything about his teachings, and really did not want to invest the time to learn. I thought that as long as I never murdered anyone, I would be o.k. I thought that all you had to do to be a Christian was to believe that Jesus existed. How wrong I was!

In my late twenties, my girlfriend at the time, who is now my wife, gave me a Bible for Christmas.She started bringing me to Church with her, when she could convince me to go. I went to Church on and off, and slowly developed a desire to know more about God, and the Bible.

I dragged my heels at first, making every excuse not to go. I really did not like getting up early, and dressing up for church. She had an answer for that: go to night service. I liked that idea. Since I loved staying up all night on Saturday, going to Church at night seemed like a good compromise.

During a year of intermittent church attendance, something changed deep inside my heart. I developed a hunger for God's word. I actually was able to pay attention in Church, and even looked forward to going.

To my surprise, though, I started to feel a great remorse for all the wrongs that I committed in the past. I began to understand that the majority of my misery was my own stupid fault. However, I was not the only victim of my stupidity. I hurt so many people! How could God forgive me for everything that I had done?

I made a few attempts at cleaning up my life, but that did not do the trick. I was still a miserable person. What I needed was forgiveness for my sins, but I did not feel worthy enough to ask. I was afraid to ask for forgiveness, because I did not want to break down and cry. I knew if I did that, I might never stop.

Everyday I felt convicted. I knew I was going to burn for all the people that I hurt in my past, and for the multitude of sins that I had committed.

During one service, the pastor of the church asked if there was anyone who wanted Jesus Christ to forgive them of their sins. I knew the time had come. I had to own up to all the sins I had committed. I had to ask Jesus to forgive me.

I raised my hand, expecting nothing more. To my horror, the pastor asked me to stand, and say a prayer with him. Everyone in the church had their heads bowed, but I was still afraid.

I stood, and said the prayer with the pastor. I asked Jesus to forgive me. I thanked him for dying on the cross in my place. I asked him to enter into my heart, and heal me.

I had tears running down my face, and I was not sure what was going to happen. I was still afraid. The pastor let me sit back down at that point.

After the service, the pastor came up to me and asked if he could say a prayer for me. With tears in my eyes, I said "yes, of course!". He prayed for me, and prayed that Jesus would enter my life. I felt an enourmous burden starting to be lifted from my shoulders. I had so much pain inside, and felt so guilty for all the wrongs I had ever committed.

I began to understand that Jesus came into the world, so he could die in my place. He paid the price for my sins. His healing forgiveness has set me free.

Since that time, I have attended an Alpha course, which is a basic introduction to Christianity. I began reading my Bible more and more, and praying for myself, and for others. I now regularly attend church, and am taking a Married For Life course.

I am constantly amazed at how much I can change, and how wonderful Jesus' healing love truly is. God has richly blessed me with an amazing job, a wonderful wife, and beautiful home.

I now am dedicating my time, and my talents, to teaching the Truth. I want your eyes to be opened as mine were. I want you to change your life, as I have changed mine.

It is my hope, and my prayer, that this site will help you in your own quest for the truth.